Prologue:
Lullaby lullaby from the deep
Lullaby lullaby I can’t sleep
Lie to me, I’d like to be
Living still, lullaby, hear me weep
Pt1:
I was young, roses were in my cheeks
Fell in love with a man of the sea
Waves would crash inside his eyes
At such depths, lullaby, who’d stay dry?
He found a ship, said that it left at dawn
Found [...]

the naag is burning in the upstairs wooden corridor. small stick stuck between book and dusty television set. a newer model blares somewhere below, sound amplified up 16 stairs. grit on every step keeping my bare feet from venturing forth to the bellows in search of cigarette relief and filtered water. plus i’d have to [...]

I vow every year to disappear before the weather changes
and every year it slowly sneaks around like a gathering drop of sweat that then races down your tits, and by then, it’s too hot to gain any sort of motivational momentum to flee or to move anywhere but the closest ac unit.
late april. it should [...]

I had a bottle of wine to ensure sweet dreams, but as soon as my head touched the pillow, my brain soared out the window. then the fucker flew back in through the front door and has been circling the kitchen ceiling since. good thing this house is so short, surely i’ll catch it soon. [...]

I used to write.
I am processing changes and dry for the time being…
I found an old journal from a different life that I appreciate more now:
Here. it is quiet, clean, lukewarm.
not sweltering, like the summer day that clings to the windowpanes,
but also not the crisp cool conditioned air
required to counter-balance all the melting convictions [...]

well…This is just a brief update from london town, eastside, off of bricklane-ish with a danish. no. there’s no danish, but there should have been. fuck.

xxoo hi.

this was so fresh when i recorded…now I’m laughing my ass off. mostly.

blah blah ouch.

I had a dream i’ve had many Ill have more
but i was walking at night…
take off belt and breath a little air with the smoke
he was tall and pall no pale by my side leaning close
and his black hair flashed in the streetlight shining lunar like in dashes between
the dark patches [...]